Aka 6/19/23 Ex13:21 Day

Isaiah 65

A Rebellious People

Before i paste part of Isaiah 65: (ALL of Isaiah 65 is good! Added to My Favorite Psalms list!)

Started this morning (now 8:48a ET) wondering when it was the last time I praised Elohim?

When was the last time i danced? With joy and thankfulness I could move?

And in such a way?

Compacted sh*t, over 48 hours, means blocked

Collard greens…frozen collard greens

Collard greens that were fresh, then stuck in the freezer …

May have not cooked them long enough? (It was limp)

With Red Potatoes (been eating them for 2 days)

Nothing moved for 48 hours!

Kinda scary! Bought some Magnesium Citrate (liquid) drank it in two parts with required 8 ounces of water each time (horrible sour, too much as well!)

Still No Movement!

First time in my life this happened!

A trickle came out after dancing after midnight (in desperation and painful)

Next day pebbles

And after another day more ‘pebbles’ till …

Smoother yet still backed up!

Fatigue, emotional, depressive and lack of desire…

Lots of obesity amongst black folks here in this city WADC

A dramatic flip from NYC

Exact opposite! They bold and proud of their round bellies here

The women are

The men are women too so…🙂

So emotional I still is

Neglecting Elohim?

Neglecting myself!

I Need the Praise!

Or I don’t function right?

Let’s see how Elohim feels about my claim of neglect:

12 I will destine you for the sword,
And all of you will bow down to the slaughter.
Because I called, but you did not answer;
I spoke, but you did not listen.
Instead, you did evil in My sight
And chose that in which I did not delight.”

13 Therefore, this is what the Lord God says:
“Behold, My servants will eat, but you will be hungry.
Behold, My servants will drink, but you will be thirsty.
Behold, My servants will rejoice, but you will be put to shame.

14 Behold, My servants will shout joyfully with a glad heart,
But you will cry out from a painful heart,
And you will wail from a broken spirit.

15 You will leave your name as a curse to My chosen ones,
And the Lord God will put you to death.
But My servants will be called by another name.

16 Because the one who is blessed on the earth
Will be blessed by the God of truth;
And the one who swears an oath on the earth
Will swear by the God of truth;
Because the former troubles are forgotten,
And because they are hidden from My sight!
New Heavens and a New Earth

Isaiah 65

He calls? I listen

(Foggy brain- Has He been calling? Aren’t i listening to Him saying, I am neglecting myself? (Holy Spirit)

Hallelujah

Still…

I hate feeling this way!

(Is this behind my problems (fatigue, liver failing, then pancreas failure, then kidney failure…) i have been having since…years?)

A commercial that offers a solution to this very thing? (Just near $300 for 6 bottles! Because you don’t want to run out and they not be in stock! Right, Dr. Poop?

<sigh> won’t be my first time blowing $300

On potential (me)

Desperate i am

So…praying 🙏🏾 my behind off right now

(A good friend passed away too and my living situation? Precarious (Narcissists groom by emotionally abusing you…except I begin packing and ask him if he wants me to leave…

Took an hour

You say i came here cause some man beat me?

You say that because that is what you want to do to me

I say

For realz

Ain’t no man laid hands on me

(Cause i pay attention! Whenever i speak of how i used to be treated (negatively) then you do those very things?

(Blackman…not just WADC

Just now done with accepting it

Done with being shocked by it

Gonna be more consistent with believing in muwah!

To not stop this time!

To pick up the code and keep transmitting!

To not have such huge breaks in between such tries anymore

Tis ain’t much

This code

Yet it is somethin!

So i plan on STANDING! On that gas pedal called…

Believe In What the Lord Has Placed In You

✌🏾🕊️😌👋🏾