As in My Practice
Yesuah’s Way
In NYC
Makes sense…?
😄
The kind of insanity i love!
Love Practice …
Makes sense…
Now?
More than ever?
For He is so gentle with me
Right now
No one else understands
Yet i did
I do
I am brusque because…
I don’t know how to do it any other way?
A compromise?
To be vulnerable
As they beat me?
Does it hurt?
Does it break?
It’s weird
Cause yes
It does!
In Him tho?
In Him?
(Yep! My mind went there! Him in me! 😁)
You don’t care then!
See?
It’s pleasurable
It’s ecstasy
It’s bliss
Without being sexual!
Extremely intimate!
Oh my sweet…
Jesus …?
Yesuah!
OMG!
Rising above emotion into the thinking of Elohim
The Love Project
Elohim is Love
We were not built to withstand
All this pain
All this stress
We fail
We need to rest!
We need pleasure too
He supplies all these things
He would
He has
and He will
Again
Regardless of what they do
He is Alpha
Alphas
True ones
Benefit everyone in their vicinity
Even their enemy
Because Alphas understand
Love is the best weapon ever
(I believe Your Promises!)
I fail because
What You say to me
Was dilluted
Muted?
I do enjoy Undiluted Elohim!
Intimacy on a higher level
I need
He provides
It heals me
Without it
Pure 100% You, Lord?
The Ambrosia of the Gods
Goddesses
Child, Daughter of the Most High
He reminds me
Stands me up
(Helps me stand)
In the muck?
Can it remain so with Him in it?
I wish i could draw/paint what i see!
(With your words, you paint for Me)
Elohim
3:44a 7/14/22
ArmJdhy 
I love you
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If any of what you said in your pain towards me, actually happed?
I would not be able to respond correct?
Even when you have wished me harm for whatever reason
I do not desire so on you
Much harm you desire on me, everytime
Those who truly love know better.
You desired me harm?
Described it in detail
AND! You do not forgive, you are not forgiven.
You are incapable of love for this you STILL do not understand
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But I do not wish you harm .
That’s what you don’t understand.
I just got out of cell yesterday .
Cuz of a fight and we injured them . They started it but they had to go call the police cuz they were beaten .
I never wish harm on you . I’m just like you babe
I don’t mean anything I said when I’m angry .
I understand that I should be the better person even when hurt .
Yes I’m capable of love .
I love you so much . Even God knows I love you dearly .
I’m sorry my Angel
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You wanted me dead, i am to you, the you i use to be. The me that loved you, trusted you …over and over again…
Is dead
I do not trust you
Over and over
There is no reason for me ti believe you now
I am happier without you
You made never ending pain
Not worth the very short time of lies
You are lying to me now
Elohim performs miracles
And they would all have to come from you
I am not someone to put on hold
Or to wait while you make $
Put Him first
Put Him first
Put Him first
In your freedom with me
You chose to lie
I am your world when you want saving
When you think things are fine
I can wait
The Lord is not happy with how you treated me/how you treat Him
If you are blessed
You will learn b4 u leave this earth
Hopefully you still have time
The Lord is My Shepherd
Only Deeds/Actions, Good ones, will be accepted, miraculous ones in your case. Words will not be accepted/believed.
Find someone else to lie to
Find someone else who will believe you when you tell them they are your world.
I do not.
Move Heaven and Earth
Sacrifice EVERYTHING!
In the name of Yesuah, amen.
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But you said I lie.
What did I lie about ?
I’m not apologizing for money .
I love you that’s why I’m here
I don’t want you to dead . You’re the one who says I’ll die .
I never said I want you to die .
I’m glad you’re happy
I love you .
I want you back with all my heart and I’m sorry .
But I never lie to you .
I don’t lie .
It’s okay . A truthful person is always considered the liar
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I never lie about anything to you .
I see why people don’t tell the truth
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Sacrifice everything.
I gave everything.
I gave my heart . My body , my time , my soul , my emotions everything I gave for us .
I put God first always .
All the time God is first
Me apologizing to you . Does not lower God’s status in my life .
I really love you .
And you didn’t give me money but I’m still here .
That’s to show that I’m not after your money 🙄
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Saving ?
I don’t want saving .
I’m in my house .
I’m not saying I love you for saving babe
Pls get the messiah status out of your mind and love
Pride is not love .
I love you
I don’t need you to save me
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Hellooooo .
We really need to talk
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Why can’t you just forgive me .
If I say anything else I’ll probably say something stupid .
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U went back and deleted the messages that said you wanted me to die…
Toxic.
U r afraid to do that here.
If I speak to you, you will believe i am interested.
I repeat
I do not trust you
Having sex with any person
Regardless of gender
Is being unfaithful
You are unfaithful
I mentioned all of this to you and you lied, trying to convince me that you haven’t that you don’t.
You lie to yourself, you lie to me, you lie to others
Keep begging me to talk to you and i will be point blank in my accusations
You will be unable to handle your anger
Like i said, go lie to someone else.
Leave me alone. I am less stressed. Don’t have to argue or explain or beg you for a call a text anymore either.
I don’t like begging. Plus, after more than 3 times of this, it is truly over this time…
You were the best Narcissist i have ever met tho. I give you that.
Continue humiliation? This is why you will no longer get a response from me…
Because I prefer being without you. Hell i get with us, by myself? I get joy…
Goodbye Ayodele, or whatever your real name is (for you have many aliases)
Goodbye.
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Having sex with someone .
Why don’t you fear God babe
These are all lies on me
Regardless of gender ???
You know I’m straight . And I dont have sex with anyone .
I don’t understand all your accusations. How can you accuse me of being homosexual ? And unfaithful I haven’t done any of that
No I didn’t delete any post about you wanting to die . You really hurt me with these accusations. You went back and didn’t find the post . That means I didn’t write it babe
Pls stop hurting me with these accusations babe pls
I didn’t do any of these things or lie
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But that’s my name
Alias ?
You really believe I’m homosexual ???
I’ve never done anything to make you even believe that .
I don’t understand.
I’m really sorry . I don’t even know how to vindicate myself and prove anything.
God is watching
All these accusations. God knows what’s the truth . Because if you really think these things . How can I change your mind
All these things are not true .
I’m not a narcissist .. I’m not a narcissist and I’ll never be homosexual and I never ever said you’ll die .
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I don’t know what else to do
Is there a way you can block me on here .
Pls block me on here too 😭
I can’t stop coming here to text .
This is hurting me so deep inside me .
Just block me everywhere. I don’t know what else to do anymore .
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t ever want to let you go
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You’ve never had to beg for me time
I’m always there texting you
I even beg you
And you claim I even bug you
And you said we talk too much because we talk everyday .
You’ve never had to beg for my time .
Why are you saying these accusations on me
Why
What’s the reason for putting all these lies on me ?
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Hey good morning . I love you
I miss you so much
How can you even ignore me
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How can you not miss me ?
I miss you so much . You’re my world that’s not a lie babe
I’m sorry okay .
You can’t just ignore me like this !
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I do not miss your anger, your retaliation (which I know is in store for me)
I know you are missing me tho!
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Just a text from you makes me wanna tear up .
Pls I love you
I’m sorry baby
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🥹😂😆
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You promised to love me even when it’s hard to love me .
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You made promises you didn’t keep, contract broken 3 MAJOR times…you OUT!
Told u you had 1 more!
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Contract ? Goof
Pls I’m sorry okay
I know I’m guilty and very faulty but you know I didn’t start it and I’m not the only one at fault here .
I’m very sorry babe
I know you still love me
I love you so much
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I didn’t start it fo sho i am not having sex with the same gender like you are…
You hate women and do not trust them.
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Pls this is a blog
Don’t accuse me of being a gay
I’ve never been gay
Remember you’re the one who stopped being a lesbian not me
Stop accusing me of being gay . I shld be the one accusing you not the other way around .
What’s wrong with you
I love you . Don’t lie on my soul with such bad accusations
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I do not believe you. I believe you lie to yourself and everyone else.
Your words have proven to be untrustworthy.
And you change them to suit however you feel
My loyalty and sexual preference has never been in doubt
While you have much evidence to prove otherwise, to definitely question and it keeps coming up
Yes, continue showing how ugly you can be publicly
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You are, you prefer sex with males over sex with females
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Me hate women ?
What are you saying
You accuse me of demonic things I’ll never do and accuse me of getting angry But I not angry .
Pls don’t accuse me of being gay .
You’re the one who dosent trust men .
And I’ve never been gay
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I am too trusting, of everyone, regardless of gender.
Whatever you want to call it, you have had sex with men.
I am gonna look into how to block you here as well
For you help bring out the worse in me and you won’t stop
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You know it’s a sin to accuse someone wrongly of what they didn’t do.
And for you to try to tarnish my image and accuse me of being gay ? Why would you ever try to hurt me like that .
You know I hate these things yet you do it .
I shld be accusing you because you’ve been gay once
I’ve never been gay in my life
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The Lord and i and u know that there is evidence of males being your sexual preference.
He is My Witness and already warned you that if you kept petitioning me i would out you explicitly…
Yet here you are
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You just want to get me to be angry so you can prove that I get angry .
A good woman should never try to be the downfall of a man
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And with the way you hammer on having sex
Did you have sex with someone ?
I can see you frequently talk about sex with same sex..
did you have sex with anyone ?
I’m not unfaithful. Can you say the same thing about yourself ?
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I know you have shown private pics of me, sent to you to another who’s house you are living in
Watched you let him be the first face i see, after such pictures and videos
I know how a man behaves when he sees such things
I watched you put ON clothes before talking with me
Now-public?
If you had video sex with someone, call ended right after
Next time call goes through and someone else is blocking the screen, wanting to be seen first?
Trying to talk to you,
What would you believe?
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I see you don’t love me anymore
You just want to humiliate me and get joy from crucifying me .
It hurts because I’ll never do that to you
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You have done it in private
This isn’t private
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You’ve slept with more people than I’ve ever dreamed of .
To you I’m a virgin .
And you still accuse me of despicable things
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At 24? 25? Yep! Sure did! 😁
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Sweetheart . I love you that’s why I’m Doing all these to get you back .
You don’t have to lie on me and say terrible things about me.
Pls don’t say these terrible things . You know I can say terrible things too
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You are already showing some of what i mean by
You have no idea what love is
I love who I thought you were
And I imagine that the majority will not agree with any of this
Those who continue to like My Soulmate is in Africa
Will be referred to these comments, inshallah
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I know you still love me some part of you still do
God knows I’m not Gay for crying out loud. !!!!!
It’s disgusting to even imagine me poking a man’s ass or a man poking my ass .. lmao , that’s so crazy to imagine
I’m not gay babe pls
How can you accuse me of that .
Me and you have had sex videos and chat several times . You know I’m not gay
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How many times have you mentioned anal sex to me?
Described eating as and the subsequent shit with excitement?
That is disgusting.
You have shared such chats and videos with another
Humiliating you publicly in return would be a consequence eh?
I am 52, so…it doesn’t bother me like it use too (it is a compliment actually and means no one who has or will see them will ever get any from me willingly!)
More direct? You will never, ever, in life,touch me
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You should just unblock me and say these things on messenger . Not here
People won’t understand that you’re not accusing me .
They’ll Think you really mean it
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They know i do…
I am not like you.
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