From Elohim/HS/Yesuah!

(Easter Eggs for eyes! 😅)

Late Silent Saturday it popped in my head that those who mock me (Coughing Brigade), crucified Yesuah!

So I started saying that to them, every time I passed by a cougher.

Well today!

This fine morning! 8:10a Peter 18, Ed,

I start thanking them for treating me just like Yesuah!

I get blessed, you (they) get cursed.

I get blessed, you get cursed.

#ArmJdhy

I say, “Thank You for the honor Demons!”

Ty for the honor idiots!

Ty for the honor, ass fucks! (Should I just call them sodomizers?)

Cause I have been walking around burned by another crucifixion!

This? Has me free again!

I am talking again (instead of silent). My smile is back! 😁😊

Yesterday I played music all day!

A large chunk secular, mainly my Alpha Female playlist (Freedom Fighter before Christ, just better at it (& less stressed) with You, Lord 😘)

And!….

I remember things changing

My demeanor, my outlook, my Attitude Adjusted! ☺️

When i agreed to…

Be with Him and just Him

Cause He seems jealous ya know?

Purposefully fuckin’ up my relationships with anyone, everyone, as a matter of fact!

I am Your Priestess Yesuah/Elohim!

High Priestess

What does that even mean?

High Queen

His Bride

Be with no human…

I noticed a change since i agreed to that

Me & Elohim have already discussed what I want in a Husband

The things i expect from a corporeal husband

I expect from Him as well!

None of this vagueness crap for instance

Distancing…distance I wouldn’t allow with a human

I will call to the carpet!

I will not allow!

Chasing You?

Pursuing You?

And there is no need for Him to chase me

Especially now

For i gave up on life

After Ayodele

He was there

He wouldn’t let me die in despair

In the pain

I didn’t fight it either

Like I said

Such tenderness 😭

How could you (i)?

Someone who loves me

Is what I asked for

Begged & pleaded for

Cried for

…

Silently

Gently

Elohim tended to me

Allah, then Yesuah, then the Holy Spirit, back to Elohim as a whole, as one…

To view Elohim as the loving, tender, compassionate, Yesuah and the funny, understanding, scary as fuck, loving, Holy Spirit!

He has shown Himself to me in all 3 of those forms

He shows me how He loved me before i even knew or could see it

Tears leak out 🥹

(New emoji’s we have)

You know when someone tries to wake you up?

And you want to sleep some more?

Cause its so comfy?

It’s familiar

It’s like I needed to feel The Suck!

Of being Chosen

Of being so blessed

Of the crucifixion

The pain of it

It’s happened so many times already

Plus,

After the false soulmate

(I asked Him for help with that too. Cause I know I will be stupid enough to go back to him!

So reminders of things i didn’t fully get or face before, pop into my head…

He lied on the Holy Spirit, said Elohim showed him stuff…

The Holy Spirit showed me that he may believe it to be true!

False…an impersonator of the Holy Spirit

And PTSD trauma, anxiety, demonic fears can play vividly in a person’s head!

When Elohim shows me painful, fearful things?

It’s done differently

I feel how He feels about it

Yeah, Satan won’t like, doesn’t like the things Elohim leaves for me!

(Made me doubt His Gift, that instead, it was a trap? Laid by demons?)

After my hands became so dry, I decided not to fight such toxic thinking

To follow whatever Ayodele said about such things, from then on out!

He, Ayodele’s excitement shot through the roof

(The Holy Spirit allowed me to sense it (it was brief but strong and inside i staggered…

Please help me do better or never even believe in such again! Please Lord! (Words r terrible! I am grateful You can see, Lord!)

For the devoid corrupts intentions

Tries to convince that they are wrong

That this is what you meant (some uglier thang)

Elohim? Yesuah? The Holy Spirit,

Aaah! Is what His revelations feel like!

The ease of them!

He tenderly, gently shows us things

When we start listening/obeying

The rewards of obeying the Holy Spirit?

Uplift your entire life!

Like being in love!

Walking on clouds! 😘🥰

You are!

Nothing is sharp

Unless I haven’t been listening in awhile

If i

Have to show u love?

You r not listening!

Because you would see Him!

If you don’t see Him when I am demonstrating Christ?

In any fashion?

I mean demons see it

Their coughing brigade demonstrates that!

Their desire to hurt me, to kill me…

Wait

You do those things too!

Just spiritually!

Lord!

I traded my family , who murders my spirit

For one

Who did /does the same thing!

Told ya u was worshipping me!

I will no longer accept that from anyone!

Ahabs thou art!

The lot of you!

Evil/Wickedness I know of and even that in which I don’t…

I got out of the False Soulmate trap

No longer struggling against it!

Defending myself

From the puncture wounds

Trying to get out, didn’t work

Truly, deeply believing i was stuck

Yet kept my eyes on You Lord!

As i lost consciousness from the blood loss

(I sank)

Yet my eyes stayed above water

My heart too

The rest?

You rose

(My Spirit never leaves You)

(Nor My Heart)

The 1/8th never dies!

1/18th Christian?

I use to be too! 😊🥰

When you begin to see that part never changes?

(The devoid has its unchanging parts no?)

(This is why i say be free! Be who u truly are! Respect from both sides (for a moment, then full on attack)

The devoid doesn’t understand!

Never will!

These words are for those who listen!

i have had a glimpse of those

On a higher level than me

A glimpse of the multitude

A glimpse of those with more wisdom than i

Ty Lord for showing me that.

Ask yourself why do they want to even think such twisted things?

Such chaos? Un-peace?

I’d rather die trusting

Than imagine mistrust!

For such thoughts kill me!

Somehow, the Holy Spirit warns me

I don’t, I can’t go around thinking (defending myself) about it!

I worked hard to let such desires go!

The ones my family, society, etc is so insistent! That I remember!

Elohim, Yesuah the Holy Spirit loves His Innocent Ones

This Innocent, Naive person i am…

Have always been

Ignorant?

Unaware

Till the Holy Spirit shows me otherwise

Is what I prefer!

Trusting Him enough to open my eyes?

To be present?

To overcome even subconscious blocks

In an attempt to protect myself?

Is what i work on!

Consciously and not!

In Yesuah’s holy name, amen!

In other words

I’d rather fail on..

I’d rather make the mistake of trusting

Than make the mistake of not trusting!

One is easier to overcome than the other!

Plus!

He enjoys my naiveté!

He welcomes it!

With Him i am safe!

To naively trust!

Wholeheartedly!

He has sustained such in me before i even understood, that He does such!

He shows me such things!

Daughter of My Own Heart

He tells me

Those of you against David

He isn’t

Why are you?

Isn’t it tiring?

I know it is!

Lonely too

Hurtful, painful

Unless you’ve gone dead there too

Such things are a cause for alarm!

Suffocating

Paralyzing

Have a tendency to spread

I prefer to spread trust

Unrealistic?

I am not trying to spread it!

I just am

Struggle to be more authentic everyday in Yesuah’s holy name, amen!

(💯 is freedom to be joyful too! Every single second of the day!

I fight for that!

For myself

Is you

We are!

In Christ, in Elohim, we are

Ty for allowing me to see and feel this, in Yesuah’s holy name, amen.