Infecting my friends with this level of faith
Because it hurts
I cried again last night (as much as one can, hidden in the bathroom)
Afterwards?
Elohim says…the Holy Spirit says…
Reminds me/shows me
Job
People who follow Christ want the good parts of the bible
To become a part of their life
I want 300 devoted soldiers of Christ tho
To at least read about it, hear about it, see it
In my life!
That would require me
To have someone trying to literally kill me? Right?
(Black in the USA, Unapologetically so…)
Check! ✔️
To be raised in a family that didn’t actually love me…
Check✔️
To be anointed, when i am nothing, to anyone, except Christ…
To have already conquered attacks, attempts (in the form of wolves, cougars and even bears?)
To have a… Jonathan…
A friend who is a child of the ones trying to kill me?
To have authority, yet commit a very huge, embarrassing sin?
To have one of my own children, try to kill me? Supplant me?
I mean, we want to beat Goliath? Be remembered by Christ for doing such?
What about Hosea?
Do you want to be loyal, devoted to Christ, not having done the sin thing , like David
Rewarded with your devotion to Christ
With a husband or wife who constantly cheats on you?
Who constantly leaves you because of it?
Yet you are commanded to get that spouse back?
Over and over again?
Would you want to be the King who burns his children alive? To another god, yet repents?
Or do you want to be Samuel?
How about Elijah?
Always wanted to be Moses…
The Harriet Tubman kind
Would that require me to be deemed ugly? Constantly? (Seen pics of her…and when you realize her slaveowners said this to her…they were jealous? Angry at their attraction to her?
Harriet suffered head trauma, after having one of those solid, back in the day irons, thrown or bashed in the head with…
Afterwards…
She suffered from severe visions?
Suffered, blessed…
See the theme here?
Had to deal with males with less balls than her
Yet she freed more people than any other!
Physically risking her life, every single time
Had to deal with those whose fear was so high
That they panicked
Because the Slave Hunters (today’s modern day slave catchers, are the Police…)
Where so close!
These people feared for their lives!
Samuel was alone
(Was he raised by that prophet who became blind?)
My Narcissist came home
Handing me 3 outfits he bought for me- totaling $86…
While he was gone
I considered leaving again
It was like Elohim, Himself held His breath?
(Or is it just all the devils went still for a moment?)
(Kwanzaa gifts he says (how do 3 sweat outfits fit into Kwanzaa?)
Still waiting for stuff i ordered at the beginning of Andrew,to arrive…
From China…
Still haven’t thanked him
Told him i hate him very much yesterday
Then he buys this…
When he had said,”Be careful of spending $! Because we may be moving in January.”
Aka Zealot
Very difficult to thank him for anything after …
I stopped serving his plate
He sits here now smacking loudly on a pear?
Malicious –
adjective
- characterized by malice; intending or intended to do harm.
What is malicious behavior?
adjective. If you describe someone’s words or actions as malicious, you mean that they are intended to harm people or their reputation, or cause them embarrassment and upset.
(So waiting for, slander about my weight, again)
Told him yesterday
“I don’t want to share anything with you. Because you will turn around and stab me …here!”
Pointing at my heart
“You have stabbed me too many times.”
I am frozen
Like deer in headlights
Barely breathing waiting for it
My heart stutters
Falters
Imagining it
I relax a little, i breathe and feel warmer
Remembering
It won’t happen until i do
“You gonna try them on?”
“I would like to see you in them,”
And it gets cold, again…
1:33p DC
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