A Novel?

A story?

Character Development, backdrop, climate, plot, antagonist?

I joined some Writer’s Support groups

Finally

After many years

Of blogging

I determine that I DO want to write!

A book

Several actually

Non fiction

And fiction

How to do that, exactly?

In one group a person responds, “With a pen.” ☺️

Good thing i got some tips from it

I also joined some drawing groups

And i see how others attempts are and how they are treated

One day, i may submit my own!

Funny how i will readily post all my squiggles here

Not in the group though

On fb i posted

Cause…

It just is

Struggling just to bathe

And eat

Living with someone who sporadically pronounces, “ I am a devil.”

While for months denied ever being such.

Alone, i would be eating less.

Alone, i would be harassed more?

I guess.

Alone i would be depressed too.

Eric Maisel says it is normal for Creatives. That actually doing art, is a cure for our depression.

Yet i find it difficult to do art everyday

And it does seem to help

Simple stuff

Like coloring

I have no coloring books

Yet i have supplies

Paint-oil, watercolor and acrylic

Brushes for them all

Paper for them all

Colored Pencils

Colored ink pens too

The push the button kind

Have plastic beads

String

Yarn

Needles

Thread

Elohim even put a simple sewing idea in my head

I gotta let go of the groups focused on making income tho

For focusing hard on Just Art for Me

My own therapy

Had me …

Showing some signs of life

My prayers

I feel them working

Holding me up

Just expecting more?

Expecting not to slide off into apathy again?

The next day?

I thought i was making progress?

Thought came to question Google

On how to sue NYC Welfare

(They call it HRA)

To file a complaint

Because they don’t answer the phone

I can’t cancel my foodstamps with them!

Makes it REALLY EASY to commit fraud!

I talk to a lawyer about this, here in DC

“That is illegal.” Is all i get?

I ALREADY mentioned i need help!

They don’t answer the phone for Medicare here in DC either.

Other states handle the cut off, or use to anyway!

Washington State? Just fine!

Waiting for my address, my mail to be returned to NYC HRA isn’t happening!

It has been over a year since i applied and i am still getting foodstamps from NYC?

Almost visited to get this handled in person…

Not sure if Elohim will allow that.

So! Looking at placing a complaint

Because it makes it difficult to sign up for Medicare…whatever the State funded thing is called.

Even though i finally got the NYC Health insurance thing cancelled, a few months ago…

Also used to Welfare signing me up for that states voting

For i need a PO Box

Finally got internet

Have Xfinity cell chip to install on this phone

Laptop problems to solve

Cause the new Book Ai thing?

Doesn’t work on cells

Need the bigger screen anyway

Yet that too, like my art supplies, sit there, hidden away

Yet i know they are there, unused.

(The delay in getting to a new line of type is really bothersome (fb i don’t have this!)

Been posting up a storm on fb (ArmJdhy too) …just in time to go Sabbath on ya’ll! (To figure all that out, anyway! ☺️😬🫤😑

11/14/23 11:15a DC