J3017 day

After midnight last night

Cuddle up to someone i cannot trust?

I can trust to cuddle

Yet other things i cannot

Laptop bought

Yet i don’t remember my pin

Too many times i sent code to email

Email not show up

Now i cannot get that option either

Fight

Argue just to get here

To get away

And…

Laptop fails?

Trapped because…

Just trapped

Praying my way thru

Back here again!

You make a way where there isn’t one😞😫😩😢

Lord please

Headphones at the laundry

I feel like the prostitute Hosea was chasing

Except he was a faithful, Elohim obeying man

Wanted to type this on the laptop

Instead on one of my phones

Forgot why i have two phones, till the other kept asking me for my Google passwords on ALL of them!

Repeatedly i press cancel

Can’t get anywhere else on that phone

Not to any other app, nothing

Why do i keep it?

Because after awhile i can get in it

I keep it to give that number online, to people i haven’t known long

Got some kind of virus and/or someone installed a tracker on me

On that phone

<sigh> 😞

Recently the Holy Spirit has been interrupting this negative vicious cycle in my mind!

And i feel bad that i make all of this a god above Him!

How?

By letting it occupy my time!

More time devoted to that circle than Elohim?

I am seeing this because i have been putting Him first (most days, at night some other times like now- when did i do it last?)

Yesterday? The day before?

Too tired, exhausted to be horrified

Just restart

Plus it has happened (these ‘breaks’?)

These lost times, so many, before…

Recently went thru a seizure session

That liquid stuff may be causing it

Going without it for awhile to see

Seizures wipe memory

Spelling goes out the window too

And co-ordination

HS reminds me again

Have headphones on

No sound

Do that Brown White noise

Storage Situation fixed?

I believe He said He would

Ty

For helping me

When nobody else would

Nobody else could

But You

Ty Lord

Ps 23, Ps 42, Psalm 19 on repeat so i can remember

I post about certain apps

Then they malfuction

Like Bible Gateway

I am still here tho

Using a different app

For the bible

Have a Yaweh Bible

Have the Holy Spirit regardless

1 step, 2 steps

Elohim, Yesuah, the Holy Spirit

My left arm twitching hard

Elohim, Yesuah, HS

Love You!

I am a mess!

And this mess will always love You!

Even beyond death!

Physical and not

In Yesuah’s holy name, amen