https://jayblock.com/protean-careers-8-ways-to-be-happy-in-difficult-times/

How?

Because i am gonna end up in jail

On the curb/sidewalk/outside with all my stuff or nothing

At this rate

Life, the world ain’t gonna change anytime soon

I am running

Gonna run forever?

I quit? Gonna fire me first, now (continuously search for better)

What verse will i say? Because the words that come out of my mouth are …

Could be better

Don’t know how to overcome/operate despite many things that i see

Don’t become blind, be in denial

I am afraid of losing Thee

Around them

Yet i have You now

Enjoy what you can, while you can

Instead of working for tomorrow

Losing today

Worrying, stressing

In my case, crying

About tomorrow

(I am crying about today)

Busta Ryhmes says (paraphrase) Look good! Because i don’t want someone coming up to me and saying, “It don’t look like it is working for you.”

Looks like my faith ain’t working for me?

I am crying more? Not less? (Maybe i need to?)

My responses are not working

What would Yesuah do?

Well, i’d rather speak a verse

From the things that bring me peace

and joy…

Breathe

You haven’t lost me yet

Elohim reminds me

Don’t quit

Let them do it

Not you

Is something that keeps circling in my head

Yes

It is all temporary

Yes

Far to many are hypocritical

Be real

Be you

Be me?

Me wants to fight! And talk back!

Do some pithy quote (of language or style) concise and forcefully expressive)

Everything is You

Keeps circling in my head

It isn’t

How can i make this situation more You?

Your Presence?

More prominent in this moment?

Everything is You

Everyone

Everything

Alignment?

I am imperfect

In You i am not

In this moment

How can i be more in You? In this moment?

My higher self?

How?

Why?

Cause i am dying inside

So how to bring more of You, outside of me?

What can i do, to achieve that?

For i am dying

And You won’t let me do that

Blessings

In this life

Hard to be happy ?

Yeah well *uck that

That statement hurts

I kept it

Practicing it?

Well…thinking about trying it

Don’t know how tho

So i googled it?

Ridiculous, huh?

Logic escaped me

Swamped by emotion (the devoid lying to me)

Focusing on You is clarity

Since in my swampiness i am consulting Thee

I will enjoy what i can of humanity

That still exists

Music

Swaying to in the libray

Demonstrating any enjoyment outside of sex, drugs and things not of You…

Is a miracle

Today

Anywhere in the world

You are a hero

To demonstrate even the smallest thing of Him

Wether you believe in Him or not

Awards go out to the longest 100 expression of Yesuah

Like Alcoholics Anonymous

Except we get awards (blessings) for seconds, minutes, hours too

From Him

Always

He sees my heart

He sees theirs too

Tis why i cry

I cannot handle Your sadness either Lord

(Saying that about the anger helped so 🤷🏾‍♀️) 😊

Can i get Your Joy instead?

Despite the pain?

Finding joy in every little thing

Gratefulness

Peace in everything

Perception

Do your best

Rather

Let Me help you with that

Please?

You will always have me

You know i mean acting like i have You

At all times

But when i look at this damage

Vs that ‘possible’ damage?

Well,

Not liking this choice

I choose to live better

I have gotten this far

Gotta try something different

Gotta grab onto

Those things swirling in my mind

That isn’t sad

Lifelines

Breadcrumbs in a storm

Praying, cause facing emotional abuse from Shelter Employees

Redeem me from the oppression of men, so that i may keep your precepts.

Stayed in my storage past 9a

So tired i was

I snore? I make some kind of noise while sleeping.

I also make too much noise while eating

What can i change?

Well, chew slower

A lot of my life is rush here, rush there

Anxiety

Leave an hour early

Two hours early

Take my *ucking time!

Instead of staying here

In the libray

Till the last minute

8:30p gives me anxiety

And Sunday?

They close at 5p anyway

Storage Employee has to check with boss, if i can stay

Beyond 8-31-23

Look for another storage regardless

Ricocheting in my head too

Because get paid 2 days before…

So…doable?

We will see

This location, company burnt

Put a lock on after office hours and take off in the mornings?

I would have to wait or ask for that

Grateful to be leaving that spot tho

Lady here crazy, repeating something loudly

Turning up headphones not quite enough

Redeem me from the oppression of men, that i may keep Your Precepts

I said

Not in a whisper

It left

She took the demon with her

Don’t judge with contempt

Judge with love

Here in DC

Incidences like that ignored by many

Not gonna tell on you

And after knowing how unprotected children are in this city

Who am i to …

How could i?

Another man, quite awhile ago was yelling at a bus stop

2 women got on the bus from there

One was condemning

The other said, “i think he is

A Gentle soul? A sweet soul?

Low, i said, “i totally agree.“

“Well! He still shouldn’t be…” the other said angrily

Better to scream than commit suicide

#ArmUrLife

I said

This is my scream

Except

It will be You i scream of

Quietly

As possible

I put You up as a block

Instead of being silent

In my attempt not to react badly

I end up doing so anyway

So lets see how much of Bible i can quote verbatim instead? ☺️

We can at least try it…

For i see no other way

Ty Lord for making another way for me

In Yesuah’s holy name, amen