Or something else will

I have read this somewhere before

Today (8-12-23 an R812 day) i feel it

Under stress and demands of others

One must! And i emphasize MUST!

Carve out time for oneself

Elohim first

Remember Breathe In Yesuah, Breathe Out?

Can be done at anytime

Spend 5 min doing it

Do it while taking a piss

Stop! The excuses! (I don’t have time)

If you don’t carve out time for Elohim, He will not have time for you either. #ArmUrLife

Said this years ago?

All these attempts at putting Him first

Saves me when i am drowning

In stress

In depression

In spiritual attacks

Even when unaware!

He pulls me out of the fire?

Or is bubble wrapping me, shielding me in the fire?

Because not carving time out for me

To relax, to have fun…

BC?

Led to being unable to do symple functions

So, now i believe, at 53, today, right now (as depression and fatigue revisit me with stress and another demonic companion-who sometimes isn’t?)

I am taking even less for granted!

As i cry out to Elohim

I find Him yelling back thru other people

People who don’t even know me

Urgency

Don’t believe the lies! Elohim says

So what exactly is being lied about?

In what way Lord?

I ask for His protection while going to sleep (trying to anyway), going down to sleep, while sleeping and while coming up from sleep

Ty by the way Lord

I am afraid

I will drink this liquid lab stuff

For awhile

Eat candy (more sugar) for awhile

And then, somehow stop again!

Taking care of myself

Is a habit, i struggle with eveyday

Elohim’s love helps me

See where and how i don’t

As time moves faster

I noticed time moves slower and/or i get more done

When i spend Closet time with Him

Every effort towards Him counts!

He doesn’t forget

My life goes wacky when i don’t

Do Closet Time with Christ

Sometimes it is literally 5 min!

The foundation i did

When i couldn’t do anything else but lay there?

I started with an hour

He is the reason i can do more than just lay there today!

As i desire to berate myself

Point out my faults

He shields me with a reminder

Of what i have done

As i live with the Spirit of Betrayal

I ask Him if He (Elohim) feels that way, about me

And

Just like someone who loves you doesn’t want to hurt you

There is a yes in there

Faithful to a human

Spiritually with Elohim

There is another layer of faithfullness

I could do

Another level

At the same time He shows me how

I need it to function, period

How no human ever would be perfect at it, while alive

How we (my ancestors) incorporated Him (their faith) in everything!

Seen as idol worship by unbelievers

Turns into idol worship with hypocrisy

When we stop listening

The cross and the Bible are examples of idol worship today

How we hurt and exclude (prideful) with these symbols of faith.

How we argue over what minister or what church

I desire to…

Be more focused on Him than the book

To have faith like my ancestors

Before they could read english!

I noticed the Bible was changed once we started to learn to read

When women were allowed to read

When those of the lower classes started to read

Whatever is written is changed each time

Whomever is currently in power changes it before the majority (which is the ones not at the top) learns to read it

Control you/us by preventing access to reading

Then changes it when you/us gain access, you didn’t have before

And you/us believe we have freedom?

When it is just a different level of control?

Makes me wish for days when food was free

All we had to do was go get it

When water was free

But now we are excited because we are given money to pay for that which use to be free?

Land without taxes

Homes without permits

Transportation and business, commerce, without licensure

Remember?

I am abhorred by our ungratefulness to the Lord!

Depressed, angry with myself about it!

Yet He shields me even then!

To be present!

To see!

Today!

Is a blessing!

Taken for granted!

By me!

Cause sometimes

I see such horrible things!

Especially when no one listens!

Except i…

Do i hear my own words? (His cry?)

(Yes, He cries a lot! For us, with us! An Empath couldn’t do otherwise)

I am an Empath (Mercy)

We all are a mercy to each other (at 53 i can now envision no humans and how horrible that would be)

Many are unaware of it tho

I see the value

In companionship alone

Ty Elohim for being with me

For raising the value of my life

For helping me see

For helping me love it

(BC i could see)

In Yesuah’s holy name, amen!