I am afraid

That i am losing myself

To a self

I…that isn’t happy?

Well,

More Real tho

Less, belief?

In

Good humans tho

Less looking for it

More development of A Material Girl?

The Thug side of me?

The Gangster i is?

Westside it?

A Persona

I am afraid

It will leak into all of me

Take over

Wipe out everything I thought i was

Part of me is thrilled!

Excited

To explore this venture

This transformation

So i ask You again

What is it You want me to do?

I await your answer 12:07a ET 8/30/22

Cause…there is a man

Who is fingering children in the park

Getting young girls to trust him

Got me

By being respectful

While fingering the White female next to me

Why is that even exciting?

No comprende

For me

He became more of a coward

While i

Struggle with

Bustin’ a cap in his …temple

Poisoning him

Taking his Jewish Catholic, Italian Puerto Rican ass out

For i realize

He thinks he has my friend’s soul

I am no longer needed

Means he came after me because of her

Lord!

More physical and less spiritual?

Ya know

Becoming a vehicle for vengeance

One less body for the demon to inhabit ?

Right?

He (as in Elohim) has been telling me to wait

To not interfere in such things

Yet

Rage?

Different tho

Instead of clouding my mind

There is singular focus

And

The thought

That He would not blame me

And the possessed person?

Would welcome it?

Kinda makes me hesitant

For I don’t want my soul damaged, taking a life

Before everything

Before the end as we now know it

And oh!

I take the stairs now

3 flights only

Yet it is a beginning

Inshallah we will get to push ups soon

In the meantime

Shoes with better support are needed!

Orthopedics actually

But several new cheaper supportive shoes instead? 🤷🏾‍♀️ 1:18a 8/30/22