Right now on fb-

Just gave advice to two different people in the same group

Liked some others in my notifications

Now a question worthy of posting here has come up in my Off Grid Group!

How much land is recommended for one family?

Google? ☺️

How much land do you need to feed a family?

http://www.boston.com/bostonglobe/ideas/brainiac/2013/03/how_much_land_d.html

(Oh and earlier i was looking up Sole Non-profit (because i ran across it once). Found out New York is one state that doesn’t do this!

And! Why am i looking at that? Because yesterday I found out that if i had a Missionary Visa i could stay for 5 years! and i also discovered I would get cut off from SSDI 30 days away from the USA (in a country that doesn’t have an agreement with SSA!

Then u catalogue time i took discovering those countries and dealing with that news and…! 😰😫😣😖😩Stress break! Cause 2-3days later all that info is swirling in my brain right now!)

<clear throat>

And this gets saved to iPhone notes under? EX1321? Or J3017 or both? (This is what i love Discord for! Under a private channel y’all would have to pay for ! Cause … me stressed! & u could do this but won’t and i need cash/food and this is a million dollar idea/advice here!)

And! Taking time out to learn to make $ from my blog? (Most of those choices disgust me! and! What do i value? What do i don’t? What do others value? Who cares what they don’t?

(Just an example of some of the stuff that goes thru my mind…

While i have the Coughing Brigade to deal with as air conditioner stops after she leaves? 🤭…

(I also think about how much I couldn’t say! And am now free to speak! (Thank goodness most of the relationship was under Sabbatical break eh? (Then y aren’t you doing sabbatical things? His Voice still pops in!

I have already discussed this with Him (like,u forget who u talking to?) As long as i stay away from WP i am good.

This morning…

I desired to open up my Kindle first! And right while i was doing it! Bible time reminder! (In my head!) so i get on my case and jerk to and back and…

Daughter?

To and…

You are MINE! He says

And i am yours i say

Read your book!

He is angry!

I tremble and say thank you, thank you! Spend a long moment being grateful

And He shows me that is what He wants

Me at peace with Him

He is angry i am stressed

He KNOWS (already damnit!) that i am not turning to the book for comfort over Him!

Stop that! Is what He is saying!

The damage done to my self esteem

My confidence

The tears underneath the surface

My heart cries

She is so hurt

Disappointed

Betrayed

Betrayal

Now what do we do?

Elohim is angry

Because of these things

I don’t want to be Hezekiah

I do have a disability there!

One very few understand

Elohim growls at me

Yeah

i don’t understand it either

I am crushed

To be honest

I am free

And i am learning to be even more satisfied

To treasure My Beloved even more!

Screen blinked out!

Back to Home Screen! Totally out of WP!

Aaah! We can stop here! And read more on land to feed a family needs to be put in Reminders…

Cause I need a break…😓😭

(Phone at 22% and air conditioner came back on as soon as she came back!)