A couple of nights ago (the night b4 last)

Had no plans on doing so

And people think i’m crazy yo?

The Ghetto is a Prison Yard

And Cops got involved

Probably because i stood in the street

As buses neared me

Tonight I realize

This is what Narcissists do!

They fuck wit you on the downlow

And then…

You/i explode in public

While they claim no involvement

Got males here who have some deep hatred!

Black males

Who do a LOT of batting for the other team, yo?

Why they hating on me?

Cause i am interfering with their switch game

You rather switch, than fight!

Public Enemy

Told ‘em if all you care about is your dick! Then YOU ARE NOT BLACK!

Speaking of Black…

There is the Cisgender conversation …via Wikipedia

Queer musicologist J Nelson Aviance in a blog post entitled “I Am NOT Cisgendered”, argues against the use of the term cis for similar reason, calling the imposition of an identity “disturbing” and invalidating his experience of gender, going as far to call the label “pyschological and intellectual violence” for rejecting his right to determine his own identity.

This is why i say i am BLACK motherfuckers! #ourstory

I am NOT African American!

It is WRONG for you all to impose on me an identity i do not agree with!

Relates to my explosion

My tirade

For i am tired of the Psychological and Intellectual Violence!

When i/we respond in kind, we are deemed volatile?

Like I would be distracted by my bus arriving!

The Head of the Police Squad that showed up?

Sent some Caucasian Female, some old lady, to suggest i get on the bus…

With gestures and the like

I left because…point given…

Told the Cops they are Slave Catchers…Legitimized Bounty Hunters

& that is why nothing good will/can come from them, an evil tree…

Not yelling at the top of my lungs at them tho…😁

I have grief so deep…

I have pain so raw

And i am alone in it

Elohim is removing it from me as i screamed that night

For it is ruining my life!

And I don’t want it anymore!

He is showing me how…

My messy room is everything others think

About me

The rage

The helplessness

The things i use to be

To let it go

Yesterday

Even what I have believed

About myself!

To put it all down

Just for a moment Love! ❤️

He said…

My firecracker…

Ghost pepper ☺️🥰

Ty Lord!

Thought the Cops would make me stop?

The tirade is not for you…

None of this is…

Enoch i be…

I go home…

Soon please!

For i hate all this evil

Even tho i do not agree

I respect their choice

Their right to choose

Why would I disrespect that intentionally?

Do to others what has been done to me and mine for centuries?

Also why i am not a Christian

As people come at me with those ‘rules’…

Restrictions…

I thought i was a Holy Spirit Walker…

Maybe i was…

I am a Witness

Like at the End of Days

Burned by Mouth…

Fire breathing…

Holy Spirit Rage

Tis why i am glad

I am starting to notice the difference!

That You are purifying my heart of these inner demons!

You encourage them/it to come out of hiding

In me…

Understanding comes after Obedience

If we are blessed

Why would Elohim encourage me to be angry?

To fully experience my rage?

Because it’s wrong

According to…

Many….

According to my Mother

This rage isn’t without purpose tho

Or to just be angry

I don’t want it

Yet i will never be rid of it

Trying to keep a lid on it

People doing their best to control me

Can’t

Soon as you try…

Soon as you think

This is a trap laid for you!

A stumbling block too

Scary thing

Trusting the Lord with this grief

Where devils hide their hatred for Elohim

In me?

Because He is the reason why?

No…never.

Releasing it now

Under His direction, His Guidance

I am free

I am appalled how deep and ugly

This pain be

Yet i know it is what was placed in me

Fear

Rage is fear

His Rage?

Isn’t tho?

Him being incensed over me?

Just me?

Specifically?

Means i am not alone!

To have someone rage & cry with me?

Howling, roaring in pain

Enuf to drive anyone insane?

To finally have someone who feels it just as intensely

Who is encouraging me to let it out? I got you? Sayeth the Lord?

For all of you as well in Yesuah’s holy name…

Be Blessed, Love & give your all, all your heart (lament to Him) & He will return the favor tenfold and more…

Ask Him why He isn’t answering your prayers…

Better yet…

Ask Him why you cannot see! 👨🏿‍🦯👩🏿‍🦯🧑🏿‍🦯🦮