Did Picasso serve the people?

Did Van Gogh?

Does Madonna?

Lecrae?

A Play?

A Movie?

I mean Record Producers and Movie Company Execs TELL us we need to make something that the people want…

And judge based on current trajectories?

If truly blessed, you’ll get a Record Producer with an ‘ear’ for innovation…

Yet when did Art begin to patronize people?

Another system of control?

Another status quo?

i am watching Picasso via Genius 2nd Season Hulu https://www.google.com/search?q=genius+picasso&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&hl=en-us&client=safari ( and Antonio Banderas is the Actor!)

Picasso didn’t want to paint like anyone else!

He struggled constantly with that, in a culture accepting Artist as a career! As a profession!

Today, being a Writer is accepted!

As long as you conform!

Know who your Audience is and your Message?!

WTF?

Did Hemingway think of such things?

Edgar Alan Poe?

C.S. Lewis?

My Audience crosses boundaries! is yet to be created!

i can see Pronoun as a Character in a story

Yet to be written!

My perfect Client.

For Business Plans demand the same thing!

Punctuation and Grammar be damned!

There was a time when i had space in my brain for Spelling anyway…

Yet…

i lost it…somewhere…

Somewhen…

My mind.

i lost it…

Where is the Audience for that?

Is it in the same place as getting it back?

The struggle to retain?

Became easy…

Dropped everything for Yesuah

Losing my own name!

Temporarily forgot my birthday even!

i let go of the panic at such a thing

i didn’t have the energy to panic!

Especially the amount needed for how long future tripping entails!

Breathe! Focus!

i need to write more about this!

That foggy time in my life…

Where Mental crossed into Physical

You said i would need this later!

Because then?

My life before i found Christ?

Just before?

How does one write from such a time?

Where Survival was your only thought?

i didn’t journalize the experience

and frankly?

i am scared to really go there!

(then it is definitely something you should do! 😁☺️)

is how i think…

it is something i need to face…

My fears…

On paper…

(i speak of a form i rarely use!

i speak about it like doom

finality and importance!

death and …

taxes? 😄 (two things to be afraid of?)

i’m afraid of torture, painful death

not death itself

yet…in a way,

i am living a tortuous…death? 10/17/21 ArmJdhy 11:30a