Looking back over Hmmm... After attending a meeting with with other people having difficulty... i realize, if i was a rapper (could make dope beats with the cussin' i could make some $ then, right? 😁 Then i realized... This blog would be like starting a Genre! One people DON'T EVEN REALIZE they need! Or want! FREEDOM! Of Speech! To be able to write like we would speak in person! The stuff WE WISH we could say? The stuff i WOULD, will, do actually say? In person? (minus the cuss words tho...) What if THIS gets me excited? (You what-you-put-out-on-the-internet-is-there-FOREVER people! No 💯 shaming! i ain't ALWAYS cussin, venting my rage, in a devastating flow (i am working on it tho! 😄) My words are sharpened the more i write! Daily Pages suck! What i have to do to BE PRESENT? HERE? In this blog on this page? i write my emotions as they come! (come 😊) Yeah! Like lady jizz all over the internet! (Squirters we are called) The 'New' Shock Jocks! i mean y'all listen to the Conservatives! White Folk, Male White Folk get this freedom... On the radio, talking... Sometimes i wish i could produce lyrics like Ice Cube and Wu-Tang (am loving the Hulu Wu-Tang thing! 2nd Season! i am like edge-of-seat watchin'! Better than ATL!) Motherfer's who say, " Lack of intelligence if you use cuss words!"? Can kiss my Black Ass (suck the 💩! Right out!🤮😅) When there is grief so deep, a pain, that if i focused on it...there are no words! Anger so intense we find multiple ways to kill ourselves with it! What is the word? Cathartic? Cussin is? Sometimes? i am grateful the Holy Spirit UNDERSTANDS it!
And WHO is gonna tell you that? That the Holy Spirit... That you CAN cuss when talking to Elohim? (just don't cuss at Him, please) Like i told my Son, you can cuss (once he reached a certain age), just don't cuss at me!
You think Elohim, the Holy Spirit CAN'T tell the difference?
That is cause y'all do not understand the Spirit of a thing! That He is more concerned with THAT than anything else!
Homosexuality (for instance) is not His concern...really...
He is concerned about where such practices (sex practice) will lead you...
When He is against masturbation , fornication, adultery, rape and homosexuality ...
What He means is:
"QUIT JUST THINKING WITH WHAT IS BETWEEN YOUR LEGS!"
Make Me your priority (Elohim still talking) and you can have all the pleasure you want!
AFTER! You give up what you want... for Me!
After you make Me be everything you want, you will get ALL that you need!
😊 Seriously!
Feels SO much better having sex under/with His Guidance!
This is part of the freedom spoken of...
imagine, having sex with whomever you like...
The difference is...
TRUSTING and believing Him when He says, "Yes!"
Means trusting and believing Him when He says, "No." too!
This is TRULY listening! TRULY obeying!
For someone who is sane of course...
My point is, even if you aren't sane (cause wickedness makes NO SENSE!)...
Being true, being 💯 doesn't just mean ass-holery! Being hard! (That is NOT 💯!)
I trust Him enough to be soft! To be niave! To be innocent! To be trusting! Because i trust the Holy Spirit to... speak at ANY moment!
It is my job, to stop on a dime! To change course! I am following His lead! His steps! THIS! Is DANCING with the Lord!
and i am learning to dance at the speed of light! (vs dervish)
(For there is no Oxygen in space!)
i have left Earth! Left its orbit!
i mean people say, they wish someone would come back and TELL them... that they want to hear the story, behind the story, behind THAT story!...
Of an Entrepreneur AFTER they are rich!
Hindsight being 20/20 and all...
Actuality? The story CHANGES at DIFFERENT perspectives!
My writing has changed after...(how many years is it again? 2021-2014=...11-4=7!)
My writing has changed after 7 years!
I am closer to how i WANTED to do it the first time!
Freer, more expressive! And sometimes i close up, reserve...
Throw in undiagnosed NVLD and maybe then you can see MORE of why i say 🖕🏾.
Its how i live my life! How i think, how i wish others would be, instead of sneaking up to me in private and congratulating me, thanking me...
i am not doing this for you...
i don't see anyone else standing up like me (i hear it in the music industry tho), so... i am like SWA, Sis✝️a With Attitude...
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